I have been sustaining myself on around 1200 calories a day since February....With my birthday last week, lots of wine, cake and picnic/bbq food...I gained 2 lbs....I know some of you think, well..whoop de freaking doo...but for me, I have come a long way, and to find the scale creap upwards..not a good feeling..so, for the past few days, I have been on a salad, subway, oatmeal/fruit diet....this morning, I got up and found, yay! I lost those 2 lbs....
But, the problem is...by lunch time today...I was freaking starving, like stomach was hurting starving..so I caved...I was at the mall today on my lunch break, shopping for new grey slacks for work, which I found, in a size 3..Yay! again, right? Well, after I bought the pants...I headed to the food court, with the intentions of another salad/grilled chicken...and, um....for some reason, my footsteps took me to Panda Express...and I have researched their calories on line, so I knew I could get the steamed veggies and chicken with mushrooms (200 calories)...but, I also got the steamed rice, thinking it would be healthier then the lo mein or fried rice...come to find out, white rice is full of sugar and that choice probably wasn't such a good idea....so, I find that I splurged..I allow myself one splurge a week....usually save that for the weekends...so, I screwed up and lost my splurge privelage for the week...
Oh, the guilt I feel.....guess it's lean cuisine only for me for dinner tonight....and I wasn't planning on going to the gym...I went last night....my left leg is so sore (shin splints~I think)...that I was going to give it a rest tonight..but, now....sigh....no rest for the weary, for the guilty and the over eater....guess I will have to go to the gym after all.....
I think I'm going to cry.....damn Panda Express!
This is kind of how I feel about it....
No comments:
Post a Comment