Is there life out there???

I try and put on a brave, happy front..but, really...I am just going through the motions...things haven't been so good for me lately...with my life. I know I have touched on my job..kids being sick...marital spats...etc...etc...but, I feel like I am missing something in my life....I feel depressed...out of sorts. I look back over my life, and at almost 38 years old...I feel like I should have more, be more, do more, with my life and for my children then what I have...I have been divorced twice, married to the third husband...and I am worried about the status of our relationship at the moment. We fight..a lot. A lot more than the kids should see or hear, a lot more than "normal loving" couples should. I don't understand why he has to be so short and hateful all of the time. He doesn't see it....he doesn't see he does anything wrong....I am not bashing him...so, don't think that....I am just as much at fault....I spend so much of every moment of my life, working toward pleasing others...at work, at home, my kids, my husband....I don't even know who "I am" anymore...I feel lost....at a crossroads that I don't know which direction to go. I want things to be better...I want my relationship with my kids and my husband to be better. I am often short tempered and low on patience myself...maybe I am depressed. I don't know. My husband doesn't believe in medicating for depression, or talking to someone, like a shrink...so, that isn't an option for me...I have no friends, my mom has enough problems with my brother, who is going through a seperation and possible divorce at the moment, so I can't go to her...I don't know what to do.
I function better when Hubby and I are on an even keel....when we are communicating...loving one another. But, lately...seems like all we do is fight and piss each other off. It has always been that way between us. We may go four/five months...with every thing going along ok..then we the silliest, most inconsequential thing, sets us off and we are totally hating one another.
I thought that once I lost weight....he would appreciate me more, that things would be better between us...I have lost 26 lbs...I am now down to 118 lbs...and things seem to be worse than ever. Instead of being proud, I feel like he resents me for it. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. We went away a couple weekends ago, as those of you that read my blog know we do from time to time...but, it wasn't quite the same...
My oldest two children..I hardly ever see..I feel like my 18 year old is lost from me...I call him, he barely had two words to say to me....I know he is developing his own life...and I understand that, but I also feel like, at the moment, there is no place for me in it. I miss him....I sit here right now, in tears...feeling like my heart is ripped out of my chest...I haven't spoke to him in a week...I miss him....hubby went to bed, angry at me again.....not speaking to me..his last words were, "I guess we are going to be at war with each other for another month"...??????Why? I don't understand......The eight year old has strep...I am worried about the rest of us getting it....Seems like I just can't win.

I find myself thinking of the song by Reba McEntire..."Is there life out there?".....that most definitely is my theme song for the moment....

IS THERE LIFE OUT THERE....

She married when she was twenty
She thought she was ready
Now she's not so sure
She thought she'd done some living
But now she's just wonderin'
What she's living for
Now she's feeling that there's something more

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

She's always lived for tomorrow
She's never learned how
To live for today
She's dyin' to try something foolish
Do something crazy
Or just get away
Something for herself for a change

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

There's a place in the sun that she's never been
Where life is fair and time is a friend
Would she do it the same as she did back then
She looks out the window and wonders again

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there

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Still Sickly.....

The little guy is still sick....I had to leave work early yesterday, go pick him up from school...he was running a 103.1 temperature...I felt like such a shitty Mom....I should have not sent him to school...in my defense, he was not running a temperature when he got up yesterday. But, I guess he was in gym class, the running around made him sick, then he was sent to the nurses office...she called me to come get him. Then I got chastised by her for sending him to school when he was running a temperature the night before.....just give me Mother of the year.....

Of course, having to leave work early was not good for me....but, what are you going to do? I know they were not happy with me, as I have asked for Friday off, to have myself a wonderful 4 day weekend....but, they can get over it...My baby needed me!

Anyway...Because of the high temp..and the fact that his throat was swollen, very red, with little bumps on it...I took him to his pediatrician...well, not actually his pediatrician..her partner.....his wonderful doctor was booked solid...I didn't care to much for her partner..but, I was just grateful she fit Aaron in with such short notice. After we left the school, before we left for the Doctor...I forced Aaron to take 2 childrens chewable/meltable acetemetaphine tablets...it was awful...he cried the whole time...I had to cut each one into about eight pieces, just to get him to swallow some with water, like a pill...this kids aversion to medicine is absolutely ridiculous...by the time we reached the doctors' Aarons temp was down to 101...the doc did a throat culture to check for strep...but, it came back negative..thank goodness. She determined Aaron to just have a virul infection, go home, drink fluids, etc..etc....She did recommend something absolutely wonderful to bring his fever down. 325 mg tablets of acetemetaphine....which he could take one every four hours....we went to the pharmacy at Marsh...because they don't put it out over the counter...most are 500 mg or more....that was too much...luckily, the pharmacist found some behind the counter....I dosed Aaron up, put him to bed when he got home, he is doing much better this morning. He should be able to go back to school tomorrow....

I just hope Max, the five year old..doesn't get it. I tried to keep them seperated and Lysoled down my house, but he probably will. Send good thoughts my way that he doesn't.

Happy Hump day everyone!

What a day....now I have a sick kid.....ain't life grand?

I didn't think this day could get any worse...but, I come home to find my eight year old running a fever, lathargic, lying on the chaise...not wanting to eat, etc...etc....This is a kid that takes a pill every night for ADHD, but can not swallow liquid medication to save his life...top it off...he won't chew Junior strength chewables either....so,knowing I had to get his fever down, or end up in the E.R. before the nights out, I poured a couple teaspoons of kids Tylenol fever into a medicine cup, grabbed a couple of strawberries, and approached him to try and get it down him...between a bite of strawberry then a teeny tiny little "lick" of medicine, this process was taking forever..one teaspoon down, with one left to go...the worse possible thing happened....I am sitting at the front of the chaise, telling him, "just don't think about it...just take it quickly" when he threw up...."IN MY FACE!!! HE HURLED ALL OVER ME!!!!" I have dealt with many things being a Mom...I have cleaned up my fair share of puke, pee and poop....but to have someone puke...in your face....there are no words...I love the little guy, I hate that he is sick...but, this day? Is truly one for the record books.....Once again, Can I have a do over?

ONE MORE MONTH...YAY!

Dancing With the Stars," the hit TV show, announced their highly-anticipated season 7 cast on ABC's "Good Morning America" on Monday.

On Monday morning, Tom Bergeron announced the "Dancing With the Stars" lineup for the upcoming seventh season on "Good Morning America". Bergeron also announced the professional dancers who will accompany the stars. Some of the dancers were previously featured on the hit TV show "So You Think You Can Dance?"

Kim Kardashian, Susan Lucci and Lance Bass lead the new cast of 13 dancers for the 2008 season. They are joined by R&B star Toni Braxton, celebrity chef Rocco DiSpirito, Olympic gold medalist Misty May-Treanor, Olympic sprinter Maurice Greene, "Hannah Montana" actor Cody Linley, "Married With Children" actor Ted McGinley, actress Brooke Burke and comedian Jeffrey Ross.

"Dancing with the Stars" premieres at 8 p.m. Sept. 22 on ABC, followed by a performance show on Sept. 23 and the first results show on Sept. 24, which will include musical performances by Jesse McCartney and the Jonas Brothers.

For the full list of pairs between the guests and dancers for "Dancing With the Stars," please look below:

Lance Bass and Lacey Schwimmer
Rocco DiSpirito and Karina Smirnoff
Misty May-Treanor and Maksim Chmerkovskiy
Maurice Greene and Cheryl Burke
Toni Braxton and Alec Mazo
Kim Kardashian and Mark Ballas
Cody Linley and Julianne Hough
Cloris Leachman and Corky Ballas
Ted McGinley and Inna Brayer
Brooke Burke and Derek Hough
Jeffrey Ross and Edyta Sliwinska
Warren Sapp and Kym Johnson
Susan Lucci and Tony Dovolani

(Information courtesy of TRANSWORLDNEWS)

HORRIBLE MONDAY....

There is absolutely nothing worse than fighting with your spouse.....my weekend was horrible, this Monday has been horrible, I feel so depressed. Funny thing is, the fight is over something so ridiculous, I am not going to even mention it....but the tension between us....you could cut it with a knife.....doesn't help that before leaving for work this morning, I blew up at him again, which made coming into hell here at work even harder. I wished I could have a do over...starting around Friday at 5 p.m....if things were only that simple, huh? Send good thoughts my way....I really, really need them.

Friday Funny.....

A woman takes a lover home during the day while her husband is at work. Her 9-year old son comes home unexpectedly, sees them and hides in the bedroom closet to watch. The woman's husband also comes home. She puts her lover in the closet, not realizing that the little boy is in there already.

The little boy says, 'Dark in here.'

The man says, 'Yes, it is.'

Boy: 'I have a baseball.'

Man: 'That's nice'

Boy: 'Want to buy it?'

Man: 'No, thanks.'

Boy: 'My Dad's outside.'

Man: 'OK, how much?'

Boy: '$250'

In the next few weeks, it happens again that the boy and the lover are in the closet together.

Boy: 'Dark in here.'

Man: 'Yes, it is.'

Boy: 'I have a baseball glove.'

The lover, remembering the last time , asks the boy, 'How much?'

Boy: '$750'

Man: 'Sold.'

A few days later, the Dad says to the boy, 'Grab your glove, let's go outside and have a game of catch.'

The boy says, 'I can't, I sold my baseball and my glove.'

The Dad asks, 'How much did you sell them for?'

Boy: '$1,000'

The Dad says, 'That's terrible to over charge your friends like that...that is way more than those two things cost. I'm taking you to church, to confession.' They go to the church and the Dad makes the little boy sit in the confessional booth and closes the door.

The boy says, 'Dark in here.'

The priest says, 'Don't start that crap again; you're in my closet now.'

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY....

STICK ON FLIP-FLOPS? WTH???



What exactly are StickOnFlipFlops?
StickOnFlipFlops are a flexible flip flop conditioned with a clean water-based adhesive we call "the stick". StickOnFlipFlops have been specially designed to simulate walking barefoot while protecting the bottom of your feet.

How do you take the flip flops off?
Simply peel the flip flops off.

Question is..would you wear them?

Getting Old.....

You know you are getting old when everywhere you go, you are called Ma'am by everyone you come into contact with..also, when you go to purchase a bottle of wine, for a friend for her birthday or..for yourself... and you don't get carded anymore....hasn't happened to me in quite some time. I actually can't remember the last time I was carded...next month is my birthday....and I am not looking forward to it....don't cashiers everywhere know that it makes an "old" ladies day....just ask for the I.D....cause if you don't...she spends the rest of her day lamenting how damned old she is and wallowing in a pit of depression....just sayin!

To Catch a Thief!!!

As I stated in my last post...Hubby and I went away for the weekend (I should have read the above book before we left)....not far, just to a town a couple hours away....but, it warranted getting a hotel room for Friday and Saturday night...now, as I have stated before, Hubby has a terrible problem with snoring...so, anytime we go away, we have to get seperate rooms, just so that I can get some sleep. Since we were kind of on a budget, I had to agree to stay in my least favorite place of all...the hotel where they "leave the light on for you"...yeah, Motel 6....I swear, that will be the last time...EVER!!! If we can not afford to stay somewhere with just a little more "taste"....we will stay home.

I could have handled it ok, if it were not for three things....One...the place reeked of cigarettes, even though our room was "non-smoking"....two, the showers were so small that even a "little" person would have been uncomfortable...no tub, either. Third, one of the "maids" (term is used very lightly)...stole from me.



Friday night was great....we checked in, I got dressed up and we went out on the town...met some new people, had ton's of fun. Saturday, we slept in, got up, showered (did act of contortion to just be able to shave my legs), dressed and went to the Cracker Barrel for a late breakfast. Before leaving the room, the maid had already knocked on the door, to see if we wanted cleaned, I told her to come back in an hour, as we were leaving. We came back to the hotel, with the intention to go swimming at the hotel pool....but, we noticed the maid had been there, made the bed, that was it. She hadn't emptied the trash, there were no clean towels. So, hubby calls down to the front desk, ask for more towels...they give him some spill that they were having some problems with the housekeeper in laundry, so they didn't have any towels for us. It would be later...so, hubby hung up the phone, I looked out in the hallway, noticed several of the rooms, that had been cleaned, had the doors open, so I went over to one, grabbed all the clean towels they had placed in there for the next guest. Don't tell me you have no clean towels. I was irritated, but mission accomplished, with towels in hand, we made our way down to the pool...Oh My god....was it nasty.

Maybe not quite as bad as this picture, but bad enough....there was no way in hell I was getting into that....so, Hubby and I debated, decided, surely, this town is big enough, that there has to be a nice public pool somewhere...so, we hopped into the car and drove around for over an hour....no pool to be found. We finally gave up and with some disappointment, headed back to our room. We decided to take a nap, then get ready for our second night out. When I entered my room, I noticed the maid had left a generous stack of towels, with fresh soap, etc..on my bed. Cool, they did follow through and now there were enough towels for the both of us....I laid down for an hour, woke up and went and jumped in the shower...after showering, I proceeded to get dress, opened up my suitcase..noticed wow...Where the hell is my underwear???? I had three new pair of sexy little undies hubby had bought me, they were gone..so, were a cute little pair of grey shorts I wore to work out in....I noticed my things were mussed up....then realization hit me....that bitch of a maid had stolen my damn underwear and my favorite work out shorts....I was pissed...like a bull with steam coming out of his nose....







I called hubby in his room and he came over right away...we called down to the front desk, hubby tells them "somebody stole our shit, send me a manager now!".....within two minutes, the manager knocked on our door....he was very indifferent and totally pissed me off....he goes, "You know sometimes we think we pack things, we set them aside, just forget"....I told him I knew I had the underwear, as I had just seen them in there with the shorts, that morning.....don't call me a liar....I was steaming, mad as hell...I flippantly made some comment about the "low class" of the hotel, how I would never stay in such a dump again....I actually slammed the door in the managers face...then, hubby got mad at me for yelling at the manger.....it just upset me that he pretty much called me a liar...I know the monetary value of the items was not much, it was just the principal of the thing....that someone had rivaled through my belongings and stole personal things from me. At that point, hubby was ready to just pack up and go, because I was being a raving bitch...I admit it. I finally did calm down, hubby left to go to the mall to buy me some more underwear, while I stayed at the room and finished getting ready to go out. Which was kind of hard to do, because I couldn't quit crying...try putting makeup on when you are bawling like a baby...I don't know why I was so upset, it was just underwear, but damn...I loved those little shorts, doubt I will be able to replace them...I think I just felt kind of "violated"...you know?

Hubby came back an hour later, with about six pair of new sexy little undies for me..Bless his heart...he is not embarrassed to go into a womens clothing store, rival through tons of undies, to find just the right pair for me....we apologized and made up, headed out for our night.

At the club we went to, they had a contest which I won...in doing so, I won some cash and this 4 foot bag of popcorn...I am not kidding, it was as big as a small child...anyway, before checking out on Sunday....I propped the popcorn up on the table and put a note to Housekeeping on the front of it....it said, "HOUSEKEEPING, YOU CAN HAVE THIS POPCORN, YOU DON'T HAVE TO STEAL IT LIKE YOU DID MY UNDERWEAR AND GREY SHORTS, ENJOY!"....Yeah, it was probably childish, but...I couldn't just leave without them knowing I know..because I can guarantee, the manager didn't do a damn thing about it.

It's a good thing I didn't leave my camera or my Ipod in the room....



Anyway, guess the purpose of my story, other than to vent about it, is don't leave anything of value in your hotel rooms...lock up your underwear!



Have a great Monday everyone!

Friday Funny!

Leaving work early today, Hubby and I are going away for the weekend!

So...Have a Great Weekend everyone!

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

EMULATING BOB MARLEY, MAYBE? OR NINJA MARLEY? MMMmmmmm...CRAZY KID!

First Day of School......

Well, today was the day...the day I said good-bye to the "baby" years...today was Max's first day of kindergarten....and Aaron's first day of Secnod Grade...I thought I would cry this morning, but suprisingly, I did very well....I took them to school, just so I could do the obligatory pictures....Aaron wasn't too keen on that...I think the comment was made about how embarrassing it was that I was taking pictures....oh, well...I told him to indulge his Mom a little...

Here are some pictures....






These pictures are from last nights open house....they met their teacher for the first time, took in their supplies,etc...then we went to the cafeteria for some frozen yogurt...



(Max just finished telling me how nervous he was)



(Max checking out his desk)



(Aaron with his "get it over with" face)

My...how time has flown....

Monday???? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow....where did the weekend go? I was so busy I feel like I did not even have a weekend off....what with the kids starting back to school tomorrow....finishing up shopping, house work, etc....I am exhausted. Oh, well...no rest for the weary.

I missed my older two boys this weekend...they didn't get to come up and visit with me...football priorites. Sucks....but, I tried to make the best of it.

The little guys and I did break away for awhile Saturday afternoon and went to see Journey to the Center of the Earth-3D....it was a really good little movie. I have not seen a 3-D movie since I was a kid...my gosh, how much it has changed. It was awesome...I swear it was like stuff was floating right in front of your face...the kids loved it, what I loved was watching their reactions, when something would float in front of them, Max would reach his little hands out, try to grab ahold of it....really cute.

We went out to eat twice....which was a nightmare...the kids just do not behave....Max especially. He spends every amount of energy he has, talking and trying to make his big brother laugh. Aaron doesn't help matters either...he encourages it..instead of trying to be the big brother and set an example. Totally exasperates me. Hopefully, with Max starting school, he will grow up a little bit...learn to behave, control himself a little better. I hope and pray he doesn't have ADHD too...I like to think he is just "all boy"...just full of energy and a little structure in his life, i.e..school...will settle him down. If not, I am sure I will be getting weekly phone calls from the school. Oh, how I pray he settles down.

My work week is already starting out on a bad note..."Mr. Burns" was here before me this morning, and I pray he is not going to be in the office all day today. I don't think I can take it. Of course, the "office ladies" (term used lightly, trust me) have not spoken a word to me...Hello's were given to everyone else, except me. Oh, well...no different from any other day. I am still working on my resume...hopefully, I will have it ready to start sending out this week. Keep your fingers crossed that I find another job, or that I don't go "postal" on the idiots at this one.

It is really sad, that it is 8:43 a.m...and I am already counting down to 5 p.m...I have a busy night ahead of me....the kids open house at school....at least hubby is going with me this time....which is a good thing..because the principal...hits on me, every single time.
When I went to the school last week, to register the boys, he was there...I swear, he has this crush on me....his whole face lit up when he seen me...he goes "Wow...look at you! You look fantastic! (I was dressed up..as usual, skirt and heels)..."Stand back, turn around...let me look at you"....(of course, I did not)....then he goes, "I mean this in a "professional" way...but, you look hot!"....totally embarassed me, as there were a couple of other moms standing there, plus the school secretary...I was so embarrassed. He just kept going on and on....with hubby there, maybe he will be more inclined to watch what he says, because in my opinion...he was not "professional" at all..what do you guys think? I mean, this guy is married, he knows I am married....does he do this to the good looking teachers at the school as well? If so, he better watch himself...or he may not be the principal for very long.

Well...the idiot won't shut up, so...I better log off for now...I hope you all have a great Monday! Come 5 P.M...I will.

Another Friday Funny.....

Boy and Girl Potato

Well, Girl Potato and Boy Potato had eyes for each other, and finally they got married, and had a little sweet potato, which they called Yam.
Of course, they wanted the best for Yam. When it was time, they told her about the facts of life.
They warned her about going out and getting half-baked, so she wouldn't get accidentally mashed, and get a bad name for herself like 'Hot Potato,' and end up with a bunch of Tater Tots
Yam said not to worry, no Spud would get her into the sack and make a rotten potato out of her!
But on the other hand she wouldn't stay home and become a Couch Potato
either. She would get plenty of exercise so as not to be skinny like her Shoestring cousins.
When she went off to Europe, Mr. and Mrs. Potato told Yam to watch out for the hard-boiled guys from Ireland . And the greasy guys from France called the French Fries. And when she went out west, to watch out for the Indians so she wouldn't get scalloped.
Yam said she would stay on the straight and narrow and wouldn't associate with those high class Yukon Golds, or the ones from the other side of the tracks who advertise their trade on all the trucks that say, 'Frito Lay.'
Mr. and Mrs. Potato sent Yam to Idaho P.U. (that's Potato University ) so that when she graduated she'd really be in the Chips.
But in spite of all they did for her, one-day Yam came home and announced she was going to marry Tom Brokaw.
Tom Brokaw! Mr. and Mrs. Potato were very upset. They told Yam she couldn't possibly marry Tom Brokaw because he's just… just a commontater!

Friday Funny.......

A couple was on their honeymoon, lying in bed, ready to consummate their marriage, when the new bride says to the husband, “I have a confession to make, I’m not a virgin.”
The husband replies, “That’s not a big deal in this day and age.”
The wife continues, “Yeah, I’ve been with one guy.”
“Oh yeah? Who was the guy?”
“Tiger Woods.”
“Tiger Woods, the golfer?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, he’s rich, famous and handsome. I can see why you went to bed with him.”
The husband and wife then make passionate love. When they are done, the husband gets up and walks to the telephone.
“What are you doing?” asks the wife.
The husband says, “I’m hungry, I was going to call room service and get something to eat.”
“Tiger wouldn’t do that.”
“Oh yeah? What would Tiger do?”
“He’d come back to bed and do it a second time.”
The husband puts down the phone and goes back to bed to make love a second time.
When they finish, he gets up and goes over to the phone. “Now what are you doing?” she asks.
The husband says, “I’m still hungry so I was going to get room service to get something to eat.”
“Tiger wouldn’t do that.” “Oh yeah? What would Tiger do?”
“He’d come back to bed and do it again.”
The guy slams down the phone, goes back to bed, and makes love one more time.
When they finish he’s tired and beat. He drags himself over to the phone and starts to dial.
The wife asks, “Are you calling room service?”
“No! I’m calling Tiger Woods, to find out what the par is for this damn hole.”

School Supplies.....

I just came back to work from Hell-mart....where I spend $93 on school supplies (including paint shirts, beach towel(kindergartner), socks and underwear, 2 new lunch boxes, plus boxes of Ziploc bags and boxes of Kleenex.....that is for two kids.....I still have not got Aaron his gym shoes and book bag....

I stuck to the list....100%..I may have gotten extra pencils, crayons and glue, but generally, we have to replace those anyway....of course, I had to get them both the cool Spider man/Batman folders and notebooks....I can't have them go off to school without the latest in "cool" school supplies.....

Still....I was not extravagant at all....yet, I am still shocked at the final bill...and I still have to pay book fees tomorrow, plus the remainder of Max's $1800 all day kindergarten fee....

I am lucky in the fact that I have hubby, who has a great job...his Mom helps out with Max...(she doesn't do anything for Aaron or my other two boys)....they are not technically "grandchildren" to her, since they are not blood grandchildren...(don't get me started on that)..but, she does help with Max, and that is a big big savings...of which I appreciate it very much....but, it makes me wonder...how do the single parents do it? Especially those that don't get child support..even for those that do, I imagine it is still very hard.

We are going to try and save some money this year though...by packing the kids lunches, instead of spending $30 a week for both of them to eat breakfast/lunch at school...we did it for Aaron, as just a matter of convenience...but, with both of them this year, it adds up to a little too much. So, I will be shopping this weekend for supplies to make lunches as well.

Do any of you Mom's out there have any cool lunch box ideas you can share? I need help, as both of these two are very picky little eaters....

Ideas, suggestions? How many of you and your kids are ready to start the new school year?

Rain..Rain...Go Away...

What a rainy, gloomy, dreary day it is today...I have been up since 4 a.m...woke up to a terrible thunderstorm....just couldn't go back to sleep...I laid there in bed, watching the numbers change on the clock..counting down....2 1/2 hours until I have to get up and go spend my day in hell....(job)....then 2 more hours..then 1 more hour..so on and so on.....I hate when I do that!

It is still raining, thundering, lightning..the office lights have flickered a couple times....it would be so cool if the storm knocked our power out, shut down the computers and we could go home....ha! Who am I kidding, that has happened once, in the three and a half years I have worked here....

Thanks to all of your wonderful comments about my job....I truly appreciate your advise....I can tell everyone that I think the idiot..."Mr. Burns"....well, let's just say, "his days are numbered".....he is not being favored by anyone...in fact, a lot of our techs, our managers, etc...have nothing but negative things to say about him. The branch manager himself is quite irritated....so, unless he pulls his head out of his ass....he may be looking for a new job. The Region Manager is coming down tomorrow, to pay him a "visit"...that can not be good. So, I will keep you updated as to what happens with that.

I sure hope the rain lets up....I spend my morning counting down to lunch time...just so that I can escape out of this office for an hour. I don't care to get wet and get my feet soaked (hello, strappy high heel sandals)....it was funny, this morning, hubby pulled the car in front of the house, so that I only had to make a straight bee line to the car...well, as you come down the steps, out the gate....there was a huge puddle of water, at least ankle deep, right where I needed to walk to get into the car...instead of moving the car, hubby picked me up, umbrella and all and carried me and put me in the car...lol...it was so funny....some guy was driving by, I thought he was going to break his neck looking at us...but, my feet stayed dry! He is too much sometimes.....

So, let's talk school....can you believe it is time for the kids to go back? I can't....either the summer is getting shorter...Or I sleep walked through most of it....I have to go buy school supplies today...new book bags, lunch boxes....that is where I will be at lunch time...hopefully, it hasn't been picked over too bad. Nothing like waiting until the last minute....

Max is starting kindergarten....I find that so hard to digest...he is my baby....does not seem like he should be ready to go to "big boy" school....he is very excited though. We have bought all new school clothes...new shoes, etc....he is so ready...I am just not ready to let him go. (sigh...teary eyed)....Aaron will be going into second grade...I have still got to buy his school clothes this week...he has been at his dads for the past two weeks and I just have not had time....that will have to be done this week as well. Tomorrow is registration...maybe after I take care of that, we can run into the mall and do some shopping.....Justin will be going into ninth grade, first year in high school...I am very nervous for him....it is going to be a completely different expierience for him....He is a great kid, and I am sure he is going to do just fine...and my oldest Tim...wow, he is going to be a Senior this year....Damn, I am getting old....(37)....where have my babies gone?

Okay...enough melancholy thoughts....I hope all of you have a great Tuesday...

Only three more days to the weekend.....Yay! Now, lets all sing together...

Loverboy's...."Working for the Weekend"....

Everyone's watching, to see what you will do
Everyone's looking at you, oh
Everyone's wondering, will you come out tonight
Everyone's trying to get it right, get it right

Everybody's working for the weekend
Everybody wants a little romance
Everybody's goin' off the deep end
Everybody needs a second chance, oh
You want a piece of my heart
You better start from start
You wanna be in the show
Come on baby lets go

Everyone's looking to see if it was you
Everyone wants you to come through
Everyone's hoping it'll all work out
Everyone's waiting they're holding out

Everybody's working for the weekend
Everybody wants a little romance
Everybody's goin' off the deep end
Everybody needs a second chance, oh
You want a piece of my heart
You better start from start
You wanna be in the show
Come on baby lets go

(quick break)

You want a piece of my heart
You better start from start
You wanna be in the show
Come on baby lets go

You want a piece of my heart
You better start from start
You wanna be in the show
Come on baby lets go

Annoying...hateful....irritating...man!

I know I have blogged about my despicable job before....and today...I am going to blog about it again...because it is truly the thorn in my side....if it wasn't for this job...I could truly be a happy person....
(Also the reason for my horrible Tuesday post~he truly makes me want to kick his ass)

You see the problem stems mainly from my direct Manager.....he is an annoying little weasal of a man, that daily pushes my patience level to an all time low....seriously, I have none when it comes to this sniveling little man....he reminds me so much of Mr. Burns, from the Simpsons...except, take the picture below, put a really bad toupee on his head...seriously, does he not see how ridiculous he looks?


I am past the point of caring anymore....today, it has never been more evident to me that I have got to find a new job....If this blog post is found, I will probably get fired...yay, bring it on!
He made a total ass out of me, during a conference call with our region office...or should I say, he forced me to make an ass out of myself....
The man is like a mosquito bite....who somedays...just itches a little, but other days...itches so bad that the more you scratch, the angrier the bite gets, to you make it bleed....he is incompetent to do his job, he is not making sales, he sits in the office (which we share) day in and day out...instead of meeting customers, drumming up new business, etc....he does not hesitate to interrupt me, constantly...when I am in the middle of working on "my work" to help him do his, or even when I am trying to eat my lunch, off the clock, at my desk, he still interrupts me, to the point where our communciation with each other is very snappy, filled with hateful attitude....he is clueless...he is never aware of our sales numbers, where we should be, where we are at..etc...etc...

This morning was no different....toward the end of the conference call, our Region Manger asked for our Pro Stat numbers, Lawn, hort and subcontracting...(I know this is foreign to you guys, basically...just dollar amounts where we are with sales for the year)...there is a report that has to be run, to acquire this information..a report I have never ran before, because our region manager has never asked us on a conference call to supply this information before...the idiot looks at me, asks for the numbers, I tell him.."I don't have them"...tell the region manager, to get back with us at the end of the call, I will have them...I run across the hall to the Branch Manager, he tells me to go to the Office Manager, she can run the report...which has to be run in two parts, and prints out down the hall, at another printer around the corner from my office...we print the first one, I run and grab it off the printer, and as I am heading back to the office managers office to print the second half...I hear the idiot, tell the region manager.."I don't know what's taking so long, guess I will have to get it myself".....I seen red...I was so pissed!
I stood at the door, looked at him, said "I AM GETTING IT, I CAN'T JUST PULL IT OUT OF MY ASS!!!!"....I was so upset, at that moment, and under so much pressure, I snapped! I did not realize that he did not have the conference call on mute, therefore, everyone in the entire region, that was on the call heard me! I am so mad....at him, at myself....the region manager kind of joked about it at the end of the call, made the comment.."Donna, thanks for those numbers...although I really would have liked to see you pull them out of your ass"....(cue red face here)...I am embarrassed...the idiot made me cry....which is usually a weekly occurrence anymore...
I don't know what to do....I told the branch manager what happened...he laughed, said he thought it was funny....but, I am sure my "attitude" will be brought up at the next performance review....who cares....I probably won't be here next January...regardless of what the hubster wants me to do....I am going to look for another job...Purdue University has a ton of job offers on their job line...I am sure they need some Administrative Assistants....the only problem I have, is my resume'...it is saved on a floppy disk...I don't have a floppy drive on my computer...at home or at work....I think Kinkos does, so I am off to Kinkos at lunch time, to transfer it over to CD rom disc, then I am going to update it, start sending it out....

I am an educated, smart, pretty woman....I have four lovely sons, a wonderful husband and I deserve better than this shitty job....and damn it, I am going to get it!

Friday Funny!!!!

The Harley-Davidson Facts.....(You men will like this one)


The inventor of the Harley-Davidson motorcycle, Arthur Davidson , died and went to heaven.

At the gates, St. Peter told Arthur. 'Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles
have changed the world, your reward is, you can hang out with anyone you want to in heaven.'

Arthur thought about it for a minute and then said, ' I want to hang out with God.'

St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room, and introduced him to God.

God recognized Arthur and commented, 'Okay, so you were the one who invented the Harley-Davidson
motorcycle? '
Arthur said, 'Yeah, that's me...'

God commented: 'Well, what's the big deal in inventing something that's pretty unstable, makes noise
and pollution and can't run without a road?'

Arthur was a bit embarrassed, but finally spoke, 'Excuse me, but aren't you the inventor of woman?'

God said, 'Ah, yes.'

'Well,' said Arthur, 'professional to professional, you have some major design flaws in your invention !
1. There's too much inconsistency in the front-end suspension

2. It chatters constantly at high speeds

3. Most rear ends are too soft and wobble about too much


4. The intake is placed way too close to the exhaust
5. The maintenance costs are outrageous!!!!


'Hmmmmm, you may have some good points there,' replied God, 'hold on.'

God went to his Celestial supercomputer, typed in a few words and waited for the results.

The computer printed out a slip of paper and God read it.

'Well, it may be true that my invention is flawed,' God said to Arthur, 'but according to these numbers, more men are riding my invention than yours'.