Middle of the week..ay yi yi....can't wait for this week to be over. Things are in a slump here at work..same old same old...Mr. Burns driving me bonkers...day in and day out....this job is so boring. But, with the economy the way it is..hubby being laid off...our finances don't allow for me to complain. At least I have a job, seems to be pretty secure..for now. Hopefully hubby is only on lay off one more week.
Very stressful trying to pay bills, put food on the table with no money but mine coming in. I have cut back on everything...it helps when the two little ones are gone to grandmas and their dads for a week at a time...then I only have to worry about feeding hubby and myself...I don't eat much. So, not a lot of groceries in the house this week. Sucks to be this freaking broke! I hate it....it's only temporary...I hope...so, I shouldn't complain too much I guess. Some people are much less fortunate...at least we don't have to worry about losing our home..just our electric being turned off, our car being repossessed...we are $75 behind on last month's car payment, which will be paid this Friday, but the loan company we have the car through are relentless...they are calling me every freaking day. (They won't reposses it, but their phone jocks will threaten to..can't wait to pay this car off and get out from in under freaking CPS...don't ever ever get a loan through these people...they have such unfair business practices..hell, some car dealerships now are telling you, get a loan with us, you get laid off, lose your job, return the car at no penalty. We are less than a hundred dollars behind on our clunker and they threaten to come and get it...let em'...no skin off my nose. Hubby has tapped into his 401 K and we should get that check a week from this Friday ( I hope) and we can get our bills caught up...but, hell...in the meantime...it is causing some major stress...On top of that... all the female issues I have had over the past month...3 trips to the doc and numerous test...we now have medical bills out the ass....insurance only covers so much...the rest is up to us...I hate getting sick, but I truly think stress just aggravated my condition...Thank God I am all better, all tests came back negative...but, seriously, the stress until I found out the test results were out the window.
On the positive front...my oldest son had his 19th birthday last Friday...he turned 19...wow, seems just like yesterday he was a teeny baby...and I was dealing with the colic...then he was walking talking and being absolutely adorable...I love that boy to death...and it is hard for me to look at him now and see he is a grown man....responsible for himself...Hubby and I drove to Terre Haute last Friday, took him to lunch for his birthday...I gave him a small check for his birthday, which I had to ask him to hold until our 401 k money is in our checking... I felt like shit having to do that...I think he understood, what with hubby being laid off and such...at least I hope he did. Hell, I haven't gotten a card or a gift from my mom for my birthday since I was freaking 17 years old...well, maybe a card or two over the last 20 years..but, as you get older, birthdays just aren't that big of a deal anymore. I do what I can...that is all I can do. I just hope that I have raised him/along with his Dad where he will learn to appreciate the gesture, not the monetary value behind it. He will go spend tons of money on girlfriends, but when it was mothers day, or my birthday...I got nothing...not a card, nothing...although he did call me. I just hope he will start priortizing things a little better as he gets older.
For the 4th..hubby and I did nothing...we went out to eat at a new restuarant. That is all. It was a great new Hawiaan Place....Polynesian food is now one of my new favorites...
Sunday...for the first time, hubby took me canoing...I thought I would hate it...I am not much of an outdoorsy kind of gal...but, I loved it...I can't wait to go again. Next time, I would like to take the little boys, I think they would get a kick out of it.
Well, guess I better get back to work...6 hours 20 minutes left...aiy yi yi...don't know if I am going to make it. Pray for me....
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