Another one bites the dust....My first wipeout.....

Holy hell am I sore and hurting this morning. I had such a crappy start to my weekend ,ending it with an even more "sore" note......Friday afternoon, about an hour before it was time for me to leave work, I get a phone call, from ex husband number one...usually we get along ok...but, lately, he has had major attitude....real sullen, not very talkative when I meet him to pick up/drop off Justin, our 15 year old...I felt like last week, something was up with him..but, didn't give it much thought. Until Friday afternoon....The ex and I are both originally from S.Carolina...I was going to college, in my freshman year, I met him through mutual friends of ours...at first, I really didn't like him, but I was going through a lot o f stuff, needed a friend, he was there....you get the picture....anyway, he kind of grew on me...he was also 10 years older than me, and divorced with two younger kids. Everyone, myself included, told me to run the other way..listing all the reasons he was not the one for me...I didn't listen....six months, after our first date, he proposed and of course, I said yes....knowing, that after we got married, he had plans to take a government job,which would require us to move to Indiana....I had some problems with people in my life at the time, and I thought, it would be great to get away from everyone, have a brand new start....it was only supposed to be a for a year or two, then we were going to move back to S. Carolina....20 years later, two husbands, four children, I am still here in Indiana....the ex is facing early retirement..soon being at his government job for 20 years. When he called me on Friday, it was with the news that he is retiring in April, putting his house up for sale, and moving back to S. Carolina....him moving, I could care less, but the problem is...My oldest, Tim (19) has just started his freshman year of college, and planned on living with his dad while he went to college, to save money. The 15 year old is a sophomore, having went to school every year (except for one) with the kids he grew up with, is center on the football team, well liked, makes awesome grades, and is very popular at school. Needless to say this news has devastated all of us.

The kids do not want to move...Justin especially. He wants to graduate with North High school and all of his friends. Tim, pretty much said he is staying, going to get an apartment with friends, and the heck with is dad. Justin on the other hand, is caught between a rock and a hard place. Either way, he will have to move, weather it is to SC or back to Lafayette to move back in with me. I can not stand the thoughts of him moving to SC with his dad...I feel like Mike, the ex is being an inconsiderate asshole about all of this. He got me so upset...crying and snotting all over the place at work, on Friday...I had to leave work early. I told him he was a selfish S.O.B...and I had nothing more to say to him, and I hung up on him. I don't know what to do....his reason for leaving is that he wants to be close to his parents again, they are both older and are in an assisted living retirement community, and they made an excellent offer to him to take their $250,000 house...I don't know what his current wife feels about it, don't really care...Mike has 2 sisters and a brother that live in the same town has his parents...he could fly down every month, would not be a problem..to uproot the boys, disrupt everyone is very selfish. I would never see my son, I don't make the money the ex has....I can't fly wherever I want, whenever I want...it is not fair. I would love to see my mom, who by the way is in much worse health than his parents, more than I do....not possible. Because as a parent, I put the needs of my kids first....which Mike has never done. Anyway, nothing has happened as of yet....I can't talk to him right now, I am too pissed off. When we do talk, I don't know how I will be able to maintain my composure with him. Justin suggested we make Tim his legal guardian, let him live with him, finish school in Terre Haute...I don't think that is an option. A lot of decisions to face and I don't think I can make them. OR handle the ones that are made. So, I started my weekend off with a sob fest of the likes I have not done since I went through my last divorce.

Once I got home, Hubby got me calmed down, we talked about it, thought we should just wait and see what happens. That it is only in the "idea" stage at the moment...one day at a time, all that garbage. We got dressed and met a friend in Indianapolis, listened to a great band, had a couple drinks, and I tried to put things out of my mind.

Saturday, I went for a great 5.5 mile run, did a little (minimal) housework, then hubby and I dressed and went for an early dinner. After dinner, we stopped by our local watering hole, our favorite bar...had a glass of wine, talked with a couple friends, mentioning we would come back for the band later that evening.
We had to go to the grocery store, after we were done there, we decided to just rent a couple movies, stay home and relax. That is what we did...we watched Mobsters...
which was a great mob movie...I love anything to do with the mob, have all the movies, read as many books as I have been able to about the subject, and The Sopranos was my all time favorite t.v. show, until it ended. I still watch re-runs of it from time to time. Out of five stars, I give it 4 1/2....

Then we watched "I Love You Man"..


Hilarious...I enjoyed it very much. Out of five stars, I give it 3 1/2....not too bad, but not the best comedy I have seen, but it is worth a rent.

Sunday morning was spent relaxing, until early afternoon, I thought I would go for a run...I wanted to do another 5.5 miles, putting my grand total for the week at 25 miles...I had only gotten a half mile down the road, when it happened...the pavement jumped up and bit my ass...Literally....actually, two cars were coming, opposite directions, the one I was facing had no room to get over, so it was up to me to get off the shoulder of the road a little more, so when I did, I slipped on some loose gravel and I went down...sliding across the gravel and pavement on the palms of my hands....let's just say there is no skin left on my right palm, and a few scrapes on my left, down my right leg....and I thought I had twisted my ankle...several cars seen my fall, no one stopped...I am laying sprawled on the side of the road, trying to crawl up to a standing position, crying, trying to hobble home...when you are hurt, a half mile seems miles and miles away. Fortunately, a lady seen my distress, turned her car around and took me home. Hubby helped clean up my wounds, we debated for quite some time if I needed a tetanus shot ( I had one about 8 years ago when I worked at the hospital) so I had to convince him that they were good for about 10 years. We cleaned the wounds up very well, put peroxide/antibiotic ointment on them, then bandaged them up. My ankle smarts a little and my right arm around my elbow is very sore. Needless to say, I didn't make my 25 miles for the week. I was so mad at myself...I am determined to go to the gym tonight and work through my pain...we shall see.
The only good thing about this week is that I only work 3 1/2 days, then I have 4 1/2 glorious days off. I sure hope this week goes better than last weeks ended.

Later...

5 K....I AM IN TRAINING...2 WEEKS TO GO...

I am like a robotic running machine...

If you have been reading my blog over the past year, (if I still have any readers-since hardly anyone comments anymore)...you know I have been on a weight loss/exercise kick over the past year and a half. I went from walking (at a snails pace) just around 2 miles last summer, to running and running fast. I am so ready to run my first 5 k...and on Sept 12th, here in West Lafayette, that is exactly what I am going to do. I am so excited for the chance to do this. I have been reading some running blogs and I can't believe the mileage and the speed of some runners out there. Women just like me. As you read from my previous post, On Tuesday night, I ran 10 miles....for my long run of the week. Thursday night, I ran 4 miles...but for the first 3.1 miles, I timed myself...my pace was as follows.

Mile 1- 9 minutes
Mile 2 8 minutes, 50 seconds
Mile 3 9 minutes 25 seconds
Mile .10-1 minute

Total time...28 minutes 15 seconds....I kicked ass....
Then I ran an extra mile, Mile 4, 10 minutes...

So, that was 4 miles in 38 minutes. Tonight, I am just going to run 3.1, see if I can improve on that time. 2 weeks to go, and I am going to be ready!

FRIDAY FUNNY..

The following joke/funny does include strong lanquage at the end. Read at your own risk.

5 yr old's first pay check!




Here's a truly heartwarming story about the bond formed between a little
5-year-old girl and some construction workers that will make you believe
that we all can make a difference when we give a child the gift of our time.

A young family moved into a house, next to a vacant lot. One day, a
construction crew turned up to start building a house on the empty lot.

The youn g family's 5-year-old daughter naturally took an interest in all
the activity going on next door and spent much of each day observing

the workers.

Eventually the construction crew, all of them "gems-in-the-rough," more

or less, adopted her as a kind of project mascot. They chatted with her,

let her sit with them while they had coffee and lunch breaks, and gave

her little jobs to do here and there to make her feel important.

At the end of the first week, they even presented her with a pay envelope
containing ten dollars. The little girl took this home to her mother who
suggested that she take her ten dollars "pay" she'd received to the bank
the next day to start a savings account.

When the girl and her mom got to the bank, the teller was equally

impressed and asked the little girl how she had come by her very own

pay check at such a young age. The little girl proudly replied,
"I worked last week with a real construction crew building the new house

next door to us."

"Oh my goodness gracious," said the teller, "and will you be working on

the house again this week, too?"

The little girl replied, "I will, if those
assholes at Home Depot ever deliver the fuckin' sheet rock..."


Kind of brings a tear to the eye - doesn't it?

T.G.I.F....

Oh, thank goodness it is Friday. It has been a long long week. The exciting thing is, Next week, I only work 3 days, then I have 5 glorious days off. Yay! I have been so drained this week. Difficulites falling asleep every night, so I am popping sleeping pills to get to sleep, so the mornings are even more difficult, because I have such a hard time getting up and going. I can't figure out what my sleep problem is, except that maybe too much exercise.....is that possible? Tuesday night, I ran 10 miles....just to see if I good to do it. And I did, in 1 hr and 43 minutes...I was smoking...surprisingly, I was not the least bit sore the next day. But, getting to sleep, poses a problem. I usually work out late in the evening, finishing up my work out around 8 p.m...so, I guess the endorphins just don't want to stop and it won't let my brain shut down to go to sleep. Last night, I went to the gym, ran 4 miles, did upper body (shoulders, back, arms, abs) and needless to say, once again, I had to take a couple tylenol p.m.s to get to sleep, so I overslept this morning. It was such a rush to get to work on time.

5 o'clock can't get here soon enough. I have no kiddies this weekend, so I am planning on going for a run after work, then relaxing, cooking a simple dinner for the hubby and I, drinking some wine, reading and watching some movies/tv, maybe if I feel motivated enough, throw in a little housework.

Happy Friday everyone!

FRIDAY FUNNY....TEE HEE....

Hilarious and Very Funny Drunk Driver Test

Paul, an accomplished juggler was driving to his next performance in Baltimore when he is stopped by the Highway patrol.

'What are these matches and lighter fluid doing in your car?' enquires the cop.

'I'm a juggler and I juggle flaming torches in my act,' announces Paul amiably.

'Oh yeah?' says the doubtful cop. 'Let's see you do it then.'

Sighing, Paul the juggler climbs out of his motor and starts juggling the blazing torches masterfully.

A couple driving by slows down to watch. 'Wow,' says the driver to his wife. 'I'm glad I quit drinking. Look at the test they're giving now.'

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

Currently...I am sitting here, at my desk....doing spreadsheets/reports, sneaking in reads on this new running blog I found and listening to ABBA....yes, you read correctly...ABBA...what the hell is wrong with me? There are no other music selections available to me. I don't know how this ended up in My Music library, nothing else is there but Bob and Tom...so, I clicked play. Who ever liked this music? I mean, other than Dancing Queen...the rest of this stuff...seriously, you need to be stoned to appreciate it....Lord have Mercy...I am definitely bringing in some CDs from home....I am definitely not 19 anymore...39 and listening to ABBA...what the heck is next..depends, geritol?

On a happier less pyshcotic note....Tomorrow is Friday...yay!!!!!!!

Me Me.....

I haven't done one of these in a while..so, I found this one surfing other blogs, thought I would give it a whirl...

Me Me
1. Name something you have in common with all your siblings:
Our Mother...lol...I have one brother. I had two, but one (baby brother Tommy) passed away when he was 18 months old. Let's see...my brother, who I love dearly, don't really have a lot in common..unless you can count that we like to relax with a drink..his libation of choice..a 12 pack..mine, glass or two of wine. We like to cut up and laugh together...but, that's about it.

2. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you have ever endured?
Childbirth...4 times over. Wowza...hurt like hell...but, if I was younger, financially secure...I would have another one...still would like that little girl.

3. What number of drinks constitutes your limit?
Depends on what I'm drinking... Mixed drinks- 4: Wine-a bottle

4. Do you fold your underwear?
Yes, being that most of my underwear are thongs, just fold in half.

5. Have you fired a gun before?
NO and I don't want to.

6. What was your favorite childhood toy?
Barbies..hands down.

7. Name a sound that disturbs you?
My hubby's snoring....God love him.

8. Name something random that you would never do.
Skydive or bungee jump.

9. Name a person whose diary you would love to read.
Gosh..that is a tough one...Marilyn Monroe's....

10. Have you ever had the same dream more than once?
Yes...can't remember it at the moment, but I know I have..I am wierd.

11. Name a song that makes you happy.
Don't worry...Be happy.

12. List three people you could count on NO MATTER WHAT.
Keith, my wonderful husband...my Mom Ann...and my brother, Earl...(I have no close friends)

13. If you were in an emergency situation and you had to deliver a baby, could you do it?
Yes, most definitely...as long as there were no major complications.

14. What do you like about being in a committed relationship?
Security...knowing someone is at home, waiting for you...

15. What do you dislike about being in a committed relationship?
There is nothing I dislike..I have the love of my life...

16. Name something you have to do tomorrow:
Get my nails done and a pedicure

17. Name a movie you are looking forward to watching:
The Hangover...once it comes out on DVD...don't have funds or time to go to movies..also, hubby can't stay awake.

18. Name something you've heard about women that tends to be true:
We never forget any thing!

19. Do you own an iPod?
I did...then like an idiot, I left it at the gym, someone took it. But, a dear internet friend of mine is sending me his extra one....Thanks Jerry!

20. What was the last movie you watched?
Austin Powers Goldmember...cracks me up everytime!!!!

21. Do any of your friends have children?
No...

22. What CD is currently in your CD player?
I don't have a CD player...my six year old does in his room, and he has an Elvis CD, does that count?

23. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
1% regular milk.

24. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Regular...2%...I don't drink it hardly at all...Chocolate milk, maybe once a year.

25. When was the last time you had Starbucks?
It has been awhile...gosh, can't really remember...at least a couple months.

26. Can you whistle?
Yes.

27. Do you have a trampoline in your back yard?
NO..but I wished..the kids would love it!

28. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Here at work..hell yeah they do. They can't stand me...the women especially. The guys, don't have too much of a problem with them.

29. What movie do you know every line to?
Chevy Chase Christmas Vacation...lol.

30. Where was your last vacation?
I have not had a really good vacation in a long time. Hubby and I drove to Florida for a weekend last year...does that count?

31. Where is your next vacation?
Maybe a weekend get away to Nashville TN in Sept...if we have the money.

32. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Would not mind getting my belly button pierced...once those six pack abs appear..
So, never is my assumption.

33. Would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos?
I don't mind one or two...but covered, hell no.

34. What did you do before this?
Went to Walmart on my lunch break and bought a chicken wrap for lunch.

35. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
When I visited my Mom last November.

36. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
At least 7. Otherwise, I am a bitch.

37. Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite?
I get along better with the opposite sex. Females hate me for some reason.

38. Do you sleep on your side, stomach or back?
Usually on my side with a pillow between my legs.

39. Do you watch the news?
Occasionally, most often read it online.

40. Do you feel alone?
Never....with a husband, 4 kids, and a full time job, I never have the chance.

Wow, that was fun..now, for those of you that care...you know more about me.

Ups and Downs......

Last night, after not having worked out at the gym since last Thursday (although I did run 3 times last week)....I made my trek back to the gym. I was so not feeling it...I was tired, cranky, and in general...I just didn't want to be there. I had that, "God, let's just get this over with" mindset...and guess what? Once I got on that treadmill...and found my pace...I ended up running 8 MILES!!!!!!!!! That is the longest I have ever run. It took me 82 minutes. I started out for the first few miles with 9 min 15 sec pace...for me, I start at stong and finish slow....but, I think my times wasn't too bad. I am going to work on that...hopefully, by next summer, I can do a half marathon. My first 5 K will be Saturday Sept 12...that will be easy peasy...currently, I can run a 5 k in 29 minutes...I am excited to do it. Then I will try my hand at a 10 k....I love running.

Anyway, after my run...I did 45 minutes of strength training, upper body, back, arms and abs....I was soaked through and through, I was elated, but very tired...so, I go to the locker room to get my things, to change and head home. I took off my i-pod...and laid it on the top shelf of the locker...and like an idiot, I left...and left my ipod...I realized once I got home and was unpacking my gym bag, that my ipod was not there.....I immediately called the gym, told them which locker I was using, would they please go check and call me back. Do you think they found it? Hell no....that locker room was empty when I left it at 8 pm last night, there was only a couple of old broads working out in the gym. Someone had to have taken it...I think they just lied to me. Oh, well....I am a dumbass.....my fault. At least 9 year old has an ipod shuffle that I can use, for the time being. His music is better than no music..but dang it...I had a great playlist on mine.

The 8 mile run was my up and the loss of my Ipod was my down...also, this weekend, I was planning on running a 5 k on Saturday...but, we had a problem with our well....when I took my shower, the water pressure was almost nil and hubby checked the pump, was at zero pressure..we had no water. We thought maybe our well went dry, we had zero water....so, being that it is a Saturday, do you think we were able to get a plumber/well person out to our house...no...We spent all day calling around, dealing with hubbys parents, who came up to help us try and fix it...So, we borrowed water from the nieghbor to keep our toilet flushed...bought water to heat up and take mini baths with....and endured until Sunday afternoon, where we had to pay someone double time to come out and fix it...5 hours, a new pump for inside the well and $2100 later, we had water. But, because we had ran the hot water heater out....for Sunday through Tuesday, our water has been dingy...turning our white laundry grey, leaving residue on our skin and it smells funky. It was better today, so I am hoping that it eventually clears up...I hate well water.

Anyway...those are my ups and downs over the past week. Hope all of you are having a fantastic week...It's hump day, which means Friday is just around the corner...and if you know Dixie at all....you know I live for the weekend....

OH, by the way...Dancing with the Stars is scheduled to start in a few weeks...whose going to be watching with me?

Later gators....

Back to School....

Well, my little monkeys are headed back to school today. What a crazy morning. Getting back into the routine of getting 2 little guys up, showered, dressed, etc....after the entire summer of only having to get myself up and going...was a little exasperating. I set my alarm for six, didn't get up until 6:30..I have to be at work by 8 a.m....(with a 15 minute commute)....what a dumb ass I was for going back to sleep for another 30 minutes....The first outfit I had laid out for Max, the shorts were still a little too big, so outfit number 2, he goes to put the plaid navy shorts on (so cute) and the button popped off...drat! So, all he had left that were new were jeans, so..he had to wear a "Not new" pair of shorts to school on the first day..oh, the horror...six years old and already very conscious of his "style"...I mean, no way would he let me out the door before his hair was spiked just so.

Aaron, the almost 10 year old, had a nice pair of new chocolate brown shorts and a lighter blue with chocolate stripes polo shirt, that we had gotten at JC Penney..very nice...very coordinated....he gets out of the shower, goes into his room to dress, comes out with the shorts on and a white/red/black/grey shirt with skulls and crossbones on it that his dad got him....I was none too happy with him, told him he was not wearing that shirt...with jeans, yeah, maybe...but not with the shorts he had on...drama, drama, drama ensued...geez...you would think I had two girls the way they carried on about their clothes/hair this morning.

I couldn't stick around to see the finished product, I had to leave for work. I hope and pray hubby got them on the bus ok. In prior years, I have always talked with the bus driver a day or two before school starts. This year, I did not. I could only assume the pick up time would be similar to last year. They got on the bus last year around 8:25 with a start time of classes at 8:40...we live one mile from the school....this year the district moved the start time to 8:50, so I assume the bus would be around somewhere between 8:30 and 8:35....I pray hubby didn't fall asleep and let them miss the bus. He has not answered my emails and once again, he has unplugged the phone at home..so, I can't reach him....I hate when he does that. So, I am sitting here, nervously waiting for a phone call, telling me I have to leave work, drive home and take them into school, late..on their first day.

Getting back into the school/homework/work routine is going to be a challenge. I am not too worried about nine year old...he did really well last year, and I don't expect 3rd grade to be too difficult for him. Max, the six year old, with him...I am a nervous wreck. Kindergarten is totally different than first grade. In kindergarten...we had a hard time with him...keeping his mouth shut, following directions, just learning in general...he thought it was all about fun/games..this year, first grade is going to be a lot different, the expectations are going to be a lot higher and the consequences for inappopriate behavior are going to be a lot more drastic. I mean, in the teachers manual for parents, that I got at Open House last night, detentions will be issued after several warnings...to a 1st grader..seriously? Holy cow....needless to say, hubby and I had a serious talk with Max about what is expectations are this year, from his teacher and from us. I hope and pray he buckles down and listens.

Well, going to try and call the school..It is after 9 am...and I have not heard from hubby...he is so tired, he could have easily fell asleep....to ease my mind..that's all. Seriously....I know my hubby...wouldn't surprise me if they missed the bus. Crap!

Update....hubby just emailed me...the bus came at 8:55 a.m...what the heck happened? What a way to start the first day...late for school..but no fault of our on? Maybe Mary, the bus driver, forgot to take her geritol..or something....why was she so late?

Over a week....sorry.

Man, this blogging thing has seriously taken a back burner. I don't know how much longer I will continue with this...I have lost a lot of readers....I understand, you don't post...people quit coming by...Well, life is seriously busy for me. I say I am going to do better.....but posting every day, even once a week, has become a challenge for me.

Work has been busy this past week. Plus, I took one day off last Friday, to drive down and visit my oldest son, get him situated for college. Yeah, I am going to have a freshman in college. He is going to Indiana State University...in Terre Haute. He is majoring in Sports Medicine/Physical Therapy....at least that is what he says for now.

So, Monday was spent seriously playing catch up here at work. The other children start back to school this week. Can't say I am sorry. It has been a difficult summer. For hubby most of all. Working third shift, then having to stay up most of the day supervising the two younger kids..has been very tough on him. His health is suffering...I am constantly worried about him.

We have been having computer issues as well. At work, most of the time, blogger is blocked. Some mornings, if I check early enough, I can log on and make a quick post, before the Websense kicks in and puts a block up. At home, we have been locked out of our administrator password. I went to set up parental controls and when I did, it blocked us from accessing just about everything, and locked us out of the administrator side of things, because we don't remember our freaking password. How stupid we were to not write it down. Now, I have to come up with money to hire the Geek Squad, or some computer repair guru, to try to find the password, reset it for us, or we will have to reinstall windows and lose all of our saved files..yes, I am an idiot and have never backed anything up.

Good news is, I have still been working out religiously....last week, I ran a total of 20 miles. Last night, I went to the gym, and did my longest run yet...7 miles...that's right, this ol' woman ran 7 freaking miles!!! It took me an hour and 10 minutes...I am no where near running a half marathon, but I am ready for a 10 k...I am starting slow though, and I think I am going to run a 5 K in Indianapolis this weekend. It truly is a high....when I can't run, I get all agitated, annoyed with everyone...there is nothing like putting on those running shoes, cranking up that Ipod, and heating the pavement...feeling the wind in your face...being outside with nature...lately, though...my runs have been on the treadmill at the gym. Too hot outside. We are finally having the July weather we usually have in August. It has been hot!!! I look forward to cooler temps so I can run more outside.

Well, guess I better sign off...lot's of work to do, just wanted to give my few loyal readers a quick update. Mr. Burn's will be in at any moment...lucky me!
Have a good week everyone!